* just a disclaimer - this is in NO WAY intended as a subtle or manipulative way to ask for support
A few days before moving to Tahiti I shared about what we were about to do at YWAM Kona's community meeting. After the meeting I ran into a young woman who said she was so blessed and encouraged to see a young family "go for it" and move to a new nation. She then proceeded to give me a wonderful word of the Lord...
She said she got the picture of me & my family with a big key ring walking through jungles and forests. God would lead us to a little safe hidden somewhere and one of the keys on the ring would open the safe. The safe was full of money and jewels - all the provision we needed for that time. Then God would lead us on to another hidden safe and another key on our ring would be the right one to open the next safe. She said she felt God had given us keys to open up provision for us in each season.
Before we moved, friends of ours started supporting us very generously. They communicated a while back that they would have to stop our support for an unknown amount of time. God was leading them into ministry/missions as well. It was honestly very exciting for us to hear of their next step into missions. Although that left us in a bit of a bind. I explain that here.
We have been praying for new supporters and an increase in support, but I feel God has said that is not the next "key" to open the next safe. He spoke that faith is the next key on our key ring. This month has been quite exciting or scary (depending on our attitude). Previously we have been getting support each month that would pay all our bills for the upcoming 31 days. This month however we have not had money for basics like groceries or diapers. God has been providing but it has been week by week. He is leading us into a deeper level of trusting Him.
I realize that thousands of people trust God day by day all the time. That is incredible! Having to trust God for just a week at a time this month has been scary enough. However God has said that He wants to give us more authority in the area of faith in finances and this is how that is done. We believe this authority is needed as we get ready to run a DTS next year where the needs will be much, much bigger. We will have to trust God for our needs as well as lead the students to trust God for theirs.
I believe God will increase our support sometime in the future. But for now - faith is the key!
Proverbs 13:12 says “Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.”
This verse is on my mind often when Erin and I pray for certain things that are close to our hearts: children, when we were trying to conceive, family, etc. It has been on my mind a lot as we have been praying for provision to visit our families for Christmas. Being able to fly home for the holidays would be an outright miracle as the cost of travel to and from Tahiti is so high.
We have been asking God if this is His will. You see – we want Him to tell us now if this is going to happen later so that we don’t get our hopes up! Because getting our hopes up in regards to this and then being let down would be very crushing especially for Erin. “Just let us know now God if this is something we should even think about!!!”
But how do you pray in faith without getting your hopes up? Faith and hope are linked together!! If we think God is saying yes but we “get it wrong” then we are left in tears, and it is very hard to hear God’s voice clearly when so many emotions are involved. So, do we just not bother or just think because the money has not come in yet that it is a no?
After praying again together this morning we are still not sure what will happen, but we KNOW we heard God say at least one thing clearly: “rest in the Lord”. Does this mean “just rest because it will happen” or “just rest because I have something else”? I don’t know, but I don’t think that is what God was even talking about!!
What I know it does mean is “rest in the Lord not rest in circumstance”. You see God has taught me a LOT since 2012 about how bad circumstances should not affect my joy. He has shown me that my joy and peace can get to a place where they are so rooted in Him that they are not challenged by any negative, ever! Now He is saying the vice-versa is also true: my rest should be in the Lord not good circumstances. Circumstances are fleeting! We could have the greatest Christmas with our families ever only to come crashing back to reality a few days later!! Or we could come home from our vacation needing a vacation – has that ever happened to you? Putting my hope for joy in an experience, even a great one, is to put my hope in something other than Christ.
I need to learn to rest in Him not my surrounding or circumstances: good or bad. Only that way, if we stay here or visit family for Christmas, the holidays will be a source of refreshing and joy. He is what my focus needs to be on and how to draw peace, rest, and joy from Him alone. That revelation must come first. Otherwise, no matter where God had us spend Christmas, we would not receive the word properly and spend the holidays with the right heart focus.